Be silent and just wait for the right moment. I know, you have been suffering a lot. I know deep down you are in miserable pain. It must be hard but not yet, Don't give up. Merge all that suffering and pain within you and wait for the right moment. And when that moment appears- 'explode', the same way Nagato did. Wear this Naruto Shippuden anime based tee-shirt because whether you may believe it or not, "LIFE'S GREATEST LESSONS COME THROUGH PAIN".